Thursday, October 29, 2009

Counting my Blessings

We are in serious need of a schedule around here!! Aubrey is so off any kind of schedule/routine it's not even funny. She has alternated this week between getting up at 9:15 and 7:15. Literally one day it's been 9:15, the next it's 7:15 and back and forth we go. I mean, I can understand some variations in what time she wakes up, but a two hour difference?? Come on! How am I supposed to plan ANYTHING? On top of waking up at 7:15 today, she decided that she would not take a nap either, thank you very much. She slept for one hour total from 7:15AM to 8:30PM. Do you know what a LONG day that means we had?!

So after my long, frustrating day I was feeling a little sorry for myself. When Aubrey doesn't nap, that means no "me time." Not only do I get nothing done around the house, but I don't get time to just do what I want to do. Then I read MckMama's Tweets about being in the PICU with her baby and hearing the awful sounds of parents losing their child, and I was ASHAMED. How horrible of me to complain about my day because my baby is perfectly healthy and into everything and won't sit still like a 13 month old should. How sad that I long for her to take a nap so that I can do my own thing for a little while. I should be holding her tight and praising God that I have a healthy baby and that I'm not sitting in a hospital somewhere with her like so many parents are tonight. Yes, some days are long and not as fun as others, but I am humbled that God chose to give Aubrey to David and me, and I am oh so thankful that she is healthy and well. God forgive me for taking that for granted. Tonight I am definitely counting my blessings.

1 comment:

The Niemeyer Nest said...

I totally get your post and often feel the same way when I read about others struggles. However, I am a firm believer that all moms need some time to themself. It makes us better mothers and wives. It's so hard to take care of others day in and day out without a break. Do not feel guilty at all! Pray for those who are struggling and do what you need for yourself to continue to be a good mom for Aubrey! Hope you get some good me time today!