First 2 weeks

Aubrey will be 2 weeks old on Friday! It's so hard to believe that 2 weeks ago, she was still in my tummy. On the other hand, it sometimes feels like she's been here forever. I'm not going to lie, the past 2 weeks have been really hard. I absolutely LOVE Aubrey, and I love being her mom, but taking care of a newborn is much harder than I thought it would be. Being sleep deprived is also much harder than I thought it would be! I don't function well on little sleep... not to mention the fact that my hormones are raging! Haha. Poor David. But like I said, I love being a mom and wouldn't trade it for anything.

Nursing continues to be a challenge. We have our good days and our bad days. Yesterday was a bad day. Today was good. So I just never know how things are going to be. Hopefully we'll get better at it after 2 weeks. That's what they say, and I'm counting on it! Aubrey goes for her 2 week checkup on Friday, and I'm really nervous about it. They will weigh her, and I feel like that will tell me if all of the frustration and tears have been worth it. If she is back up to her birth weight, I will feel so much better about it. If not... well, I don't know what we'll do. She nurses every 3 hours, night and day. She's almost like clockwork. But she only nurses for 10-15 minutes. Everything I read says she should be nursing for 30 minutes. She just will not eat that much. So I worry that she's not getting enough. She has wet and dirty diapers, but I still worry. The big test will be the weight. She weighed 7lbs, 3oz when she was born, and when she was 4 days old she was 6lbs, 13oz. So we'll see... I wish I had a scale with ounces at home so I could weigh her! I would probably drive myself crazy though. I tend to do that...

My mom and grandmother came over today, and I got to take a 2 hour nap. It was so nice. It's amazing what a little extra sleep can do for you. I also got to get out of the house. My mom took me to Target to get diapers and wipes while my grandmother watched Aubrey. I felt guilty leaving her even though we were only gone for probably 30 minutes! She slept the whole time, and it was nice to get out, I must admit. We also went to church tonight. It was fun to show her off and see everyone's reaction to her. We stayed much longer then we had planned, and I had to feed her at church. It wasn't bad at all though, and it was probably good to get that over with. I was a little nervous about the first feeding away from home. We're still learning!

So, the past 2 weeks have definitely had their ups and downs, but God has given me the strength to stay sane. I don't mean to make it sound terrible - Aubrey is a really good baby, and I have a wonderful support system. We have had so many friends and family bring us delicious meals. I haven't even had to think about going to the grocery store or cooking. David has been helping me keep the house (semi) clean. I'm so blessed!

I'm still working on the birth story. I want to get all the details while I still remember them so I can go back and read it when I've forgotten all about it. The details are already fading, as crazy as that sounds. Must not have been too bad. :) Pray for a good appointment on Friday!