Thursday, July 17, 2008

Random Thoughts

Aubrey is due two months from yesterday! In a way, this is a scary thought because it seems so close. On the other hand, it feels like I still have forever to be pregnant! I am so ready for her to be here so we can see her and hold her. But it's a little scary to think about how much she is going to change our lives. NOTHING will be the same. It will be a good change and one we're both looking forward to, but any kind of change is always a little scary. When I start thinking about all the things involved with caring for a newborn, I realize what a huge responsibility she is going to be. I'm nervous about labor and delivery (!!!), nursing, how I'm going to handle being sleep deprived, being a prisoner in my house for weeks after her birth... But for every worry I have, there is something I'm even more excited about. The pros far outweigh the cons! I know that God will give me the strength to handle caring for a newborn while recovering from childbirth and getting no sleep, just as He does for every new mom! (And dad, minus the recovering from childbirth part!)

I must say, I am starting to look forward to not being pregnant anymore. I kind of feel guilty for saying this because I have absolutely LOVED my pregnancy. It has been a dream pregnancy and I am so thankful and blessed. However, this heat is really starting to get to me! I'm hot literally all the time. AND I'm ready to lose all the baby weight. (And I'm not even finished gaining!) Some days I just feel so huge, and I feel like I'll be huge forever. I look at old pictures of myself and just sigh. I took being thin for granted. (Haha, this sounds like I'm obese now!) Anyway, I'm hoping that feeling huge is good for me - I'm very motivated to exercise and get into shape after Aubrey is born. We'll see how that pans out.

Oh, I wanted to say something about 4D ultrasounds since literally everyone I know who is pregnant and far enough along has had them recently. David and I will not be having a 4D ultrasound. We were given the option and chose not to do it. The main reason for our decision is that David is totally weirded out by them and thinks they look like melting wax figures. (Haha! Sorry, Honey, I had to say that.) If you haven't seen pictures of a 4D ultrasound, you should look one up - I have to admit, after he said that, I can see what he means. Also, I've heard that a lot of babies look nothing like their pictures when they're born. And you have to pay extra for the ultrasound if you want it. I was on the fence about it. I thought it might be fun, but I wasn't dead set on it. So given David's strong feelings on the matter, we made the decision to wait until our baby is born to see her. We're doing this the old-fashioned way! :-)

This post today is kind of rambling and all over the place. Just what's going on in my head!

6 comments:

KTElltt said...

Carrie, I think all of your concerns are valid. And there are definitely parts of having a baby that aren't easy, but you are 100% correct that the pros outweigh the cons! I would try to look at the "prisoner" thing in another light -- that you are one of a small percentage of mothers that GETS to spend all this time with just you and your sweet little newborn baby. So many women have to fly up out of that rocking chair and get back to work for different reasons. But you have been given the chance to savor every moment that you have with this little girl. I say, embrace it! And remember that your mom is close, and I am close, and if you want, I'll come get you, take you to get a coffee, and drive you and Aubrey around until you're sick of the sunshine! :) As for labor and delivery, hmmmmmm... Well, I think you'll figure it all out when you're going through it. But God does see us all through whatever we have to go through. He is good, and in the end, I'm sure you will say that the pain was nothing compared to the wonderful little girl you have and that you want many, many more...

PS I agree with David on the 4D thing. I have yet to see one that I think looks very good, and being able to see all the placenta and stuff kind of freaks me out as well. We didn't have one with either of ours.

KTElltt said...

WOW! Look at me -- I hijacked your blog and miniblogged in the comment! SORRY!

Carrie and David said...

Aw, Katie, you're sweet! I might be taking you up on getting me out of the house! :) And don't worry about the "miniblog." Since you're about the ONLY person who leaves us comments anymore (hint, hint! Ha!) you're allowed to miniblog!

Rebecca said...

Carrie,
That was my first time going to New York, and I loved it! I think it's one of those places that everyone should see in their life. There was something about the city that was just magical.
I can't believe that Aubrey is almost here! Just a few more months. I LOVED the bedding, by the way. So cute!

Ashley said...

I totally and completely feel the same way you do! Change is SO SO scary. We'll talk soon :o)

rachel989 said...

so you know its hot when even i, the most cold natured person ever, am burning up all the time! i cannot even imagine being pregnant! and considering that i have now been to walgreens every night out of sheer boredom for the past three nights, and that the cashiers now know me by name, i totally get the fear of being trapped in the house! but don't worry- ill come and keep you company!

i've been doing some random thinking of my own :) and.i just wanted you to know how excited i am to meet your precious daughter- and how i cannot wait to extend our sweet friendship to include her! love all yall!